Yep, I'm still alive. No posts because sometimes the thought of posting is torturous.
I had a personal tutoring session with a Bar/Bri tutor. Normal price is $500/hour, but my school pays for us to have two sessions during the Bar/Bri program. I can't imagine paying $500 for that. The lady said some people are signed up for tutoring packages that cost $10,000. I almost fainted and barfed. Note: If anyone wants to throw that much money at someone, please just throw it at me!
The tutor was impressed I was actually staying on schedule. I can't imagine not staying on schedule though, so much money and time will be wasted if I fail the exam. Apparently, hardly anyone actually sticks to the schedule. Basically she thought I was doing really well and that I am for sure going to pass. So, that was good news.
Then, I started manifesting physical symptoms of stress/anxiety. Specifically, at random times my shoulders, upper back, elbows, and the skin on top of my hands would start aching like crazy. Aching like growing pains, or like when you have the flu and you're all achy - except worse. Not like sore muscles, but aches. It happened during class and the pain was almost too much to bear; I had to come home early instead of staying and studying. It happened again that night while I was watching TV. Plus, I have a headache and stomachache most days.
I think I actually am getting multiple sclerosis, but I don't know what the symptoms of that actually are. It seems like random severe aches would be a symptom. But, since I realize that is probably not what it is, I decided to put it in the manifesting physical symptoms of stress category. If anyone knows of a disease I could have, please let me know so when I have insurance some day I can get cured.
But, the Bar is the least of my worries. I am purely stressed from the stupid job market. Career services sent out this email basically saying there are no jobs, so we have to schedule an appt to talk to someone there to figure out what we're supposed to do now. Awesome. The thought of going through three years of all this and then not being able to do what I wanted to do is crippling. And, trying not to think about that is exhausting.
I'm exhausted.
We're off to my parents' house this weekend for a change of scenery.
I had a personal tutoring session with a Bar/Bri tutor. Normal price is $500/hour, but my school pays for us to have two sessions during the Bar/Bri program. I can't imagine paying $500 for that. The lady said some people are signed up for tutoring packages that cost $10,000. I almost fainted and barfed. Note: If anyone wants to throw that much money at someone, please just throw it at me!
The tutor was impressed I was actually staying on schedule. I can't imagine not staying on schedule though, so much money and time will be wasted if I fail the exam. Apparently, hardly anyone actually sticks to the schedule. Basically she thought I was doing really well and that I am for sure going to pass. So, that was good news.
Then, I started manifesting physical symptoms of stress/anxiety. Specifically, at random times my shoulders, upper back, elbows, and the skin on top of my hands would start aching like crazy. Aching like growing pains, or like when you have the flu and you're all achy - except worse. Not like sore muscles, but aches. It happened during class and the pain was almost too much to bear; I had to come home early instead of staying and studying. It happened again that night while I was watching TV. Plus, I have a headache and stomachache most days.
I think I actually am getting multiple sclerosis, but I don't know what the symptoms of that actually are. It seems like random severe aches would be a symptom. But, since I realize that is probably not what it is, I decided to put it in the manifesting physical symptoms of stress category. If anyone knows of a disease I could have, please let me know so when I have insurance some day I can get cured.
But, the Bar is the least of my worries. I am purely stressed from the stupid job market. Career services sent out this email basically saying there are no jobs, so we have to schedule an appt to talk to someone there to figure out what we're supposed to do now. Awesome. The thought of going through three years of all this and then not being able to do what I wanted to do is crippling. And, trying not to think about that is exhausting.
I'm exhausted.
We're off to my parents' house this weekend for a change of scenery.
i had all of those symptoms when i was pregnant.
ReplyDeleteswine flu?
ReplyDeletebreathe girl. just breathe.
that sounds like what i had when my hair hurt for like 2 months and almost drove me crazy. it was totally just stress in my neck that was giving me that achy flu like hair/head pain. i hope someone knows what i am talking about when i say my hair hurts.
ReplyDeletei bet if my nanny was still alive she would know what to do about it. actually i don't know what she knew about.